Filed Under : by Lyann Ng
Friday, May 21, 2010
When i feeling down, i don't like to be alone, i don't wish to stay alone and think alot of things...it makes me feel terrible and miserable... .. some times i wish to cry but i couldn't , i don't know why! it makes my heart very uneasy and breathless.
Today, i heard of my grandma is in Hospital of ICU. ICU !!! is that mean very serious? i dont't wish any of my dear 1 to leave my world... ... she is old ....so... is that mean she is going to leave us alone? I am very very sorry!!! i cant accept it.... ....
I am unhappy right now...really sad but i cant express to anyone, how can i ask a stranger to worry or care about other people problem, even i tell, what they can do? concern? or just give me sympathy of eyes? ...for sure they will give me all kind of concern... i really appreciate but right now i dont't wish to hear any of it..... .... they already have their own things to face, they also have alot of thing to do... so that is not the right time to tell them my problem.
i am full of stuff to do.... it is not an excuse. I really donno should i go back JB right now or stay here to do my stuff ? if i stay here is just seem like so unfilial, but next week really is an extreme week to me..... As a grandaughter, there is for sure should rush back and stay beside her and take care of her without any doubt....but why i am still here blogging? really wish to slap myself!!! arh~~~~~~~~~~ what should i do ????
Everything will be ok!!! will be!!! ok!!!!......sure ..100%(keep telling myself)
if can i would rather use my part of life to change her life and make her painless.
PLEASE TO THE GOD!!! PLease let her recover soon...IF NOT! Dont't let my grandma suffer.....If u really want to take away her life, please be kind to take her away as peaceful without any pain... ...(pray)
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